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the earth is gonna day anyway, so why bother





random picture taken from ftw long time ago porno site




woohoo! suicide on cherry blossom under chery blossom tree!




i love her....just so damm love her...




i love cherry blossoms, yeah...blossoms..

the things with people

not to say that i'm the one who is like 'you must invite me when u play this game everytime' or something. but if you did say wan me to play, hell man, dont just create a room and keep on playing and playing. wtf was i waiting for then?

i really cant stand this kinda attitude. makes me wanna go fuck up ppl. thanks for the "invitation" to join ur game duh

emo woot

Have been pretty down lately. Things are just not going smoothly, or rather going adversely. Everything, family probs, friends, emo stuff and all, fucked up myself.

Sometimes I just wish I can be abit more selfish, more freedom, more flexibility. But all I got is sombre. When things goes till my peak, I can do the unimaginable. I DO NOT want to do those stuffs but I'd really do it if I cant control my temper anymore.

I consider myself to have a very high tolerance compared to the others. I believed I've been through quite enough of level of patience to consider myself high tolerable person. I've live with my stubborn gparents for 14 years and damm they're stubborn and ignorant. They think we still live in their time where everything still works they way it was back then.

Heck, I'd grab a knife if I run of temper. Anything, I'd do anything and I dont want to know what I'll do then. Its hard to live on like this. Yeah yeah you can fuckin tell me there are more people living a fuckin less fortunate life than mine. Well, I'll tell you what. This is my life and I fuckin control my own life! I can fuckin complain my own life as long I dun fuck with yours and you with mine!

Before this, things seems to be coming from pieces into a whole. And now, everything seems to be breaking into pieces apart again. Its shaky, and some of the pieces has already broke apart. Wish them good luck fuckin their own life.

Sometimes, I feel like giving up all that I have now. Go out somewhere new, and start all over from scratch. I dont care if its hard. Yeah, saying is easier than doing it. But I believe I got the commitment, if I'm allowed that it. I felt that perhaps I just dont belong to this kind of society. I dont mix well with them. In fact, I've been struggling to make myself to suit them. I wish to break out from it and be free. Maybe I'm more to a solo type of guy.

Yes, I really love the company of friends and others. It does feels good. But when things goes up to another level, things get stiffs. This and that start to come in and emo is in the air.

I prefer a simple way of life. Just a simple life. Get married with a girl I cherrish, get a decent job, a house on a safe quiet area, have some children and live my life. Getting up in the morning with the first thing I see is the face of the one I love. Go to work happily and come back to enjoy the company of my wife. Nothing else. No need for there to be a high standard of life or you must have this or that. No, I'm not into it.

For now, these kinda dreams seems so far from my reach of hands. In fact, I couldnt even dream of it. Its hard to imagine what it would be like. But still, simplicity is my way of life. You get what you get, what is yours will be yours, no need to go making a big fuss out of it. Whats done is done, not as if worrying or regreting till you die will undo what has happened.

But of course, simplicity doesnt mean to take things for granted. We do strive for our goals, just that we dont torture ourself in the process.

Its late, I'm gonna sleep...
Good nite...

yes it is a complex world...

i love emo song and at the same time, i hate them....

No Title

life is precious
and yet we say its unfair
yes it is
and no it is not

sometimes or perhaps most of the time
it seems that the things that we dont want
is what we get the most of the times
and what we wishes for
is like a deam come true when it realises

things were'nt the way i hope it is
but at least not everything isnt
i still hope for that special someone
and how long i've waited
and yet no reply is being given

am i to blame myself
or its just communication breakdown

why...
why does it have to be on us
why it is always me to be in this position
why am i so selfish at the worst possible time
why do i have to be put in this situation
why wont the warm sunshine would ever shine on me
why...
why........

all the things i do
all comes from the bottom of my heart
and yet it cant reach into yours
and i regret it doesnt

and now...
i'm of the edge of giving up...
but deep down inside...
its hoping to see some sunshine soon...
and so do i....

Loveless

Loveless - Prologue

When the war of the beasts brings about the world's end

The goddess descends from the sky
Wings of light and dark spread afar

She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting

Loveless - Act I

The Infinite mystery

The gift of the goddess is what the three men seek

But their fates are scattered by war
One becomes a hero, one wanders the land

And the last is taken prisoner
But the three are still bound by a solemn oath

To seek the answer together, once again

Loveless - Act II

Though the prisoner escapes, he is gravely wounded

His life is saved, however

By a woman of the opposing nation
He begins a life of seclusion with her

Which seems to hold the promise of eternal bliss
But as happiness grows, so does guilt

Of not fulfilling the oath to his friends

Loveless - Act III

As the war sends the world hurling towards destruction

The prisoner departs with his newfound love

And embarks on a new journey
He is guided by hope that the gift will bring bliss

And the oath that he swore to his friends
Though no oath is shared between the lovers

In their hearts they know they will meet again

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LOVELESS ( POEM )

Loveless - Prologue

When the war of the beasts brings about the world's end

The goddess descends from the sky
Wings of light and dark spread afar

She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting

Loveless - Act I

Infinite in mystery is the gift of the goddess

We seek it thus, and take it to the sky

Ripples form on the water's surface

The wandering soul knows no rest

Loveless - Act II

There is no hate, only joy

For you are beloved by the goddess

Hero of the dawn, Healer of worlds
Dreams of the morrow hath the shattered soul

Pride is lostWings stripped away, the end is nigh

Loveless - Act III

My friend, do you fly away now?

To a world that abhors you and I?

All that awaits you is a somber morrow

No matter where the winds may blow
My friend, your desire

Is the bringer of life, the gift of the goddess
Even if the morrow is barren of promises

Nothing shall forestall my return

Loveless - Act IV

My friend, the fates are cruel

There are no dreams, no honor remains

The arrow has left the bow of the goddess
My soul, corrupted by vengeance

Hath endured torment, to find the end of the journey

In my own salvation

And your eternal slumber
Legend shall speak

Of sacrifice at world's end

The wind sails over the water's surface

Quietly, but surely

Loveless - Act V -Made by Genesis-

Even if the morrow is barren of promises

Nothing shall forestall my return

To become the dew that quenches the land

To spare the sands, the seas, the skies

I offer thee this silent sacrifice

Sombre Morrow

For how long I've tried
to get into you
For thats how long I have
been loving you

But it seems that my every try
has no reply
Just like a falling plane
into an eternal endless hole

And yet it still struggle
just to make ends meet
and yet there still
is no answer received

The day is getting darker
the pilot is getting tired
and yet the end is still far from near

All that awaits is a sombre morrow
no matter where the plane fall
For it only takes one reply
for me to get out
of this eternal slumber