how...

Blame me for my ignorance
my stupidity
my selfishness
my ownself...

I dont appreciate things
that come to me
and instead
I ignored it...

Sometimes
these things come during the wrong time
when I cant give my attention to
and while I'm trying to adjust myself to it
it became too late?
it's fading away

I didnt mean to do what I've done
I need time to adjust myself
and all of this come
at such a wrong time
so wrong
that I feel guilty
for any decision I've to make

Either it's this
or it's that
I cant run away
either way
someone will be hurt

I'm glad and honoured
that I'm such a person to you
it really touched me
but for you to suddenly do this
after all that happen
perhaps its just me
but it seems unacceptable to me

Now
I'm stucked in between
not knowing where to go
where to turn to
Hoping miracles will do its works
and everyone will be happy
a decision which is desired by all

I'm lost....
confused....
and lost....